be careful what you wish for..

Sometimes you just want to grow up, and we spend our life rushing to get older and we keep wishing that we can speed up time. And then when you finally get it, your reality comes crashing down, and everything that you thought was real, really isnt.... in one sense im glad, that i didnt spend anymore effort maintaining relationships in my life that weren't worth it... but in the other sense its kind of sad and really heartbreaking that people are not what they have been made out to be.

I can say it a million times and i dont care if i offend anyone, i mean I tend to offend plenty of people anyway.. but I will be ok. I have found that middle ground in my life worth holding on to, and realized that Im way better off letting less people in, and lettting less people know about my life, ironic that its in a blog? hehehehehe.

I must not make any sense today, but thats fine. Today I am thankful for the small steps I take every day. Slow down for me life. Im trying to live in the moment :)