saturday class...

so not only was yesterday thee longest day ever, but today is the first day of saturday class for winter quarter of stats!!! reallly not as bad asi thought it would be, i would have prefered it to have more than THREE meeting times the whole quarter but well see how this online class works out.... ahhh on to tuesday for the next first day of class!!!! i also was excited to open up the mailbox and find something other than dirty ads in our box!! this was the first piece of correspondence steve and i have received!!!


...even though its after christmas, its still exciting!! thanks amanda!

now of to wait for my dinkhead to take me on a date....

today is..

enchilada night!!!!!!!!!!!!..hahah doesnt help my restlessness at all.. something is eerking me these days and i have yet to get to the bottom of it.. in other news, i have a possible different position interview next week. restless keeps going at least for another week...

ahhh i literally have not being feeling to do anything productive this week. im dreading the fact that school will start saturday and i will have no energy left..im going to be back in the grind. im just excited my brain will again be stimulated, and even though i hate the initial going back to new clasees in the end i am in love again...
I think part of my problems now probably have to do with other people causing problems. I have had too many situations in which those that i loved most and trusted cannot be trusted again and its ridiculous seeing as how much time i actually spent on them, why is it that there is not that many honest people in the world? Girls are just vicious now days, and it sucks that human beings can treat other human beings that way.. I have nothing but to wish the best for people that do not want me in their life, because i know that just wishing them the worst doesnt help me win, but being the bigger person and walking away from it does. I mean we all have so many chances to learn from each other, and instead of just looking at the negative of it, I will focus on the things that I have learned from them. I will think of the wonderful times we had together and not try to delete and erase everything that I ever had or lived with them, because what does that then leave me? They were important to me then, even though they are no more, I will just think back at those times fondly and remember the good. Because even though there might only be a little bit of good in there, that little good always outweighs the bad in my book... and after this is my book anyway.





P.S nars finally came in mail today! :)

long nights..

are for freaking out over how much boys play video games... and how i cant even think of spending so much time on that..well if it concerned makeup or shopping i wouldnt mind spending that much time on it.. hahah
so this week marks the beginning of winter quarter, ughhhh so much more work and stresss again! saturday class killme now.. the only thing that im looking forward to is getting a certain xmas package at my moms paid for by my lovely as one of my xmas presents :)


nars turkish delight..



nars orgasm blush


and of course, UDPP.. aka urban decay primer potion in eden.

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slowly but surely this weekend is coming to an end.. i have to fight the urge to not keep my first lovely christmas tree up, since it is no longer the holidays..ahh work seems like a silly idea for tomorrow.. but i guess its what i have to do.. blah im too lazy for any pictures, and to all a good night.. funny thing is i probably slept the most today out of anyday of my life, but i dont care. its sunday and it is raining. sudnay funday before the crazyness of monday comes back..

2011

I'm not here to bash 2010, not at all. 2010 was really good to me, and my only goal for this year 2011 is to complete it and get to the end and have another yearful of memories to rejoice over next new years eve. yes many things happened that i wish i could change the final outcome of it, but needless to say maybe it was for a reason, ive gained things, but also lost many, and even though at times i may feel bitter about it, maybe im just better off anyway. I mean, we all cant expect to go year after year without having any changes, things happen and many of those things cant be avoided. We all have the strong urge once january 1st comes around to make big goals, changes, and take on resolutions that sometimes seem way easier to talk about with friends... lose weight, get a better job, be nicer, make and save more money... the usual.. this year i decided to not wait to start any of these things after 2010 was over, but rather before it was over.. why wait for tomorrow to make changes, when the biggest changes can be made today?
In the end I hope that next year i can look back and have many more accomplishments to be happy about just as i am now.. 2010 made me into a better and more independent person. I applied, was accepted and finished my first quarter of grad school. Steve and I completed another wonderful year together and managed to get our first apartment together. I have a few close friends that made life more manageable who i will always be thankful for... so as i sit here in my livingroom and watch steve play another round of black ops, I will just remember all the good things, and think of different ways that i can top them next year :)




good bye 2010!