i think i got my answer.
Its a one way road i have been following. their path was shorter than mine.
I wonder if the way my stomach drops whenever i think about it... is ever going to stop.
it helps keep my heart beat constant.
it helps it jump and make my body feel alive.
if they only knew how long i was going to have to do this.
im the fool here, shame on me. but i cant stop.
its like a sickly addiction that eats me away.
maybe they should think of acting as their career, and bring me along.
i have been part of the act as well, i should get some credit.
if they only knew how much its worth, for my sanity, the honesty.
thats all i ever want.
that's not all i ever get.
i wonder how many people know. that the promise i dream about making in the future
is only one sided.
its the promise i want to make.
each day goes on, and they go off again.
i know ok, i know.
i dont want to know, but i do.
i never agreed to be a part.
just tell me the truth, i deserve that at least right?
you dont have to worry about me, it never was about me anyway.
take it as you want.