so much has changed..

things happen for a reason.
but how long do we wait for that reason?
i feel like im going to be bitter forever.
was i not worth the fight?
i dont know. i dont know ..i dont think ill ever know.
sometimes people change, things change.
priorities change, doesn't necessarily mean change is for the better.
sometimes people make stupid mistakes and that's just them.
its now i was finally able to see why things didn't feel right.
i mean what kind of friendship would it be if you couldn't even completely feel comfortable expressing how you felt at all times.
i guess we never really received that title.
blah.. im like on a word vomit spreeeee.. hahaha

but on the upside.
i start school in less than a month!!
i will again be chasing books and scantrons!! i havent been happier than i am now.
and in part is due because of him.
i have never been prouder in all of our 6 years(almost) than i am now of him.
he makes happier than words could ever explain.. cheesy i know but thats just the only way i could put it.
i have seen him go from a boy to a man, and i know that he has matured more than i could know.
he makes me smile. he makes me enjoy just being next to him.. theres times when all i do is sit there and laugh because i am sooo happy and appreciative of all the hard work he has put in.
this is not a one foot race.
we can complete it now, with both feet on the ground.
i have to stop before i cry!
of happiness of course.