you know when you reach those moments in time when you look back and analyze how far you have gotten?
well thats where i am right now.
i know its weird but sometimes i still get so unsure of myself and where im going that i drive myself crazy. like i said, i tend to over analyze things alot.
like love.
if that word in itself does not freak you out then boy you have never felt it.
sometime my mind tends to think faster than my hands can type or write.
love. blah.
sometimes i think that i love him more than he could ever love me.
but see thats not bad is it? i know that he loves me, but i think the way that we explain it is different and therefore one tends to be bigger. mine.
i can sometimes see ourselves as we were before, and its scary
because i never want to go back to those days.
days .
like how he smiles, how he looks at me.
like how i have stupid days, and how i think darn i must be doing something good, because he comes back even when i look like a mess, or act like a mess. im darn lucky.
thats all now, but the memories of the way we were back then are mostly in the negative side, so i tend to block those out.
{lets just say that she has never been happier, than she is now}