All you can know is that you want to move forward

And risk that the love that you have will allow that happen..

But like Carrie says, it's not logic its love..

I've been slowly driving myself insane. Dont let that scare you...I'm ok and better than I have ever been. But tonight I had one of those moments that just happens when you go back and you think of where you were a while back and you're glad of where you are going and are currently at. I once thought I was broken. I once thought nothing else was worth smiling for. I once thought that all my hopes were broken... And it's quite embarrassing to think that I allowed myself to feel that way. But think if things like that didnt happen, then maybe we wouldn't be so happy at where we are now. I think I lost a couple of days worth of fight in me at that time.. How easy can something crumble your world.. Never would I have thought it would have been me! I put more thought into the days nowadays... And I'm not sure of a lot of things, but what I am sure of is that I'm willing to work for whatever it is I want.. People have helped create what I have come to be these almost 25 years and it's no fair to them that I allow anything less than really making it out there. I need to share my happiness and hey I can call it wisdom as well with others :) here I am feeling as old as ever, but maybe finally realizing that I'm starting life over again? I'm not being apathetic. Nor am I being sympathetic to any situation that ever occurred to make me feel like I couldn't go on.

I dont know how to end this post.. But what i can I have created my own form of therapy and that is by writing. I am thankful for all of the words out there that help me create my own world and dig out all my thoughts( even though some might be shorter, longer or crazier than the others)......
Thank you. And I hope the universe helps feeding me the words to keep writing this long novel of my unwritten life.