i thought I was going to have a better start to February..

expectations? pshhh. we have too many that most dont come to reality.. Part of me wants to think that I shouldnt have any, but how fun would life be that way? no hope? id rather not live such a sad life. ELIZABETH, compose yourself, i might sound crazy but I need to bring the positiivity back in my life, it was infecting my life before and made me feel so good, I need to not let it slip away.. Sometimes we just get to dissapointed in ouselves, but who will believe in us if its not ourselves? I mean look at me now, 5 months till school is over. Im nearing big changes in my life and wanting more changes(such as my job). I need to be able to maintain a positive attitude. Note to self: You can do anything, You know you can if you just try.. mean look at the things that you have done so far.. Dont give up too easily, You are not too old, never too fat, never too tired.. There is always others that have it worse than you. Note to self: Love youself, Please because thats something that no one will be able to do better than you can. Reject those that want to hurt you, there will always be new people trying to upset you and push you down, Remember its not your fault to fix everyone, its not your fault that they are so bitter.Kill people with kindness, Elizabeth, you will get what you want if you try, you will, just be patients. Stick to your goals, have goals to begin with, small short long or tall..have priorities, and morals... Life never goes out the way you want it if you dont have a plan. Have some sort of a plan, because even though life never goes out according to plan,it sure is a lot heck easier to cry about when you know you planned something rather than nothing..

Ironically, Thank you for my sanity today. I tend to think too much when I shouldnt.My mind needs to stop racing.. but of course it wont. Sometimes I wish I could type and write faster than I can think...