ahhh i literally have not being feeling to do anything productive this week. im dreading the fact that school will start saturday and i will have no energy left..im going to be back in the grind. im just excited my brain will again be stimulated, and even though i hate the initial going back to new clasees in the end i am in love again...
I think part of my problems now probably have to do with other people causing problems. I have had too many situations in which those that i loved most and trusted cannot be trusted again and its ridiculous seeing as how much time i actually spent on them, why is it that there is not that many honest people in the world? Girls are just vicious now days, and it sucks that human beings can treat other human beings that way.. I have nothing but to wish the best for people that do not want me in their life, because i know that just wishing them the worst doesnt help me win, but being the bigger person and walking away from it does. I mean we all have so many chances to learn from each other, and instead of just looking at the negative of it, I will focus on the things that I have learned from them. I will think of the wonderful times we had together and not try to delete and erase everything that I ever had or lived with them, because what does that then leave me? They were important to me then, even though they are no more, I will just think back at those times fondly and remember the good. Because even though there might only be a little bit of good in there, that little good always outweighs the bad in my book... and after this is my book anyway.





P.S nars finally came in mail today! :)